End of school year

Nine months of hard work, struggle and stress have finally come to an end, and now I find myself at home, comfortably devoting all my free time (which is more than I could have ever bargained for) to those small pleasures that unfortunately are never available for me to enjoy during the school year, finally welcoming the new season and the deserved break I'd been waiting for. Given that this blog was mainly created with educational purposes rather than to rant about my private life, I don't think I will continue to post anything of interest, and I intend to close the blog as it is with this entry.

I am no enthusiast of the current education system, and yet I must say that in spite of the many difficulties presented since September, my last year in mandatory secondary school can well be considered the best of the four I have taken so far, not only because I have at long last been able to choose what to study but because I have come across some very nice people that have undoubtedly made this rather stressful and oppressing experience of a school year a lot better, and if I call the last nine months 'stressful' and 'oppressing' it is because my classmates and I have struggled endlessly through a constant pile of homework, assignments and exams that could knock anyone of our level down, and that, in fact, have derived in several anxiety attacks.

And yet, despite all of this, I have thoroughly enjoyed the company of my teachers and classmates, found new friends, loyal, trust-worthy and amazing friends, and lost those close friends I thought would never replace me but that in the end have done so. I have found satisfaction in my working hours, learned new things and encountered little things that have changed my perceptions and made me have faith. I have done all I could not to crumble and I am proud of how far I have come, and I am proud of those who have been there helping or suffering with me. 

To those who have taught me with passion and love and eagerness for what they teach, thank you, don't let this mean, ugly world let you believe you can't teach beautifully instead of teach heartlessly. 

To those who have tried to teach me that we youths are a (literal quote) 'worthless pile of swines who couldn't handle being in charge of a country even if we wanted to', thanks for the tip and you're entitled an opinion, but the difference between your opinion and pizza is that I did ask for pizza. Oh, and, as a matter of fact, we "youths" will run the country one day and will pay you for your years of service when you retire. Kindly remember that, please. We may not have lived a war, but we are smart enough not to start one like some of you did.

To those who have not only been my teachers but my friends, I admire you and I respect you more than I can say here. Keep on showing us mercy when we've wronged, keep on helping us get on our feet when we have fallen, for we are thankful. As thankful as one can be. Your doings will not be left to oblivion.

And finally, to those classmates who keep a warm and beautiful environment, who crack jokes and show affection despite them being somewhat contrary to that, I owe you more than one laugh and one or two chess games. Thank you, guys. 

To those who call themselves friends but won't be there when you need them, thank you anyways, one learns from both the people that bring us down and the people that pick us up. Nevertheless, I am still there for you if you shall need a shoulder.

To those who in few days have conquered me with their true personalities and with whom I have shared more than you could in a lifetime, I can't even begin to describe the pure admiration and affection and loyalty I feel, but it is possible I might have dropped you a line or two at some point. Thank you too. A million thank yous.

I will always remember all of you, friends and foes, because all of you have made this year unforgettable. Some of you I will see when summer is over, some of you will disappear forever from this town, but may this entry serve as remembrance that you all existed, that some of you failed to be there and that some of you will be in my heart forever, whether it be because of the reasons mentioned above, because of other reasons you will individually know of or because of reasons whose existence only I know of.

Thank you all, have a nice day and a wonderful summer vacation.

How to disappear from the Internet

Seldom does one go on the net without eventually coming across the usual "How to" posts about virtually anything. Well, if you're trying to disengage from the online life, one of these might be helpful. In particular, you're looking for this one: how to disappear from the Internet.

Of course, the first thing you must do is deactivate completely every single website you have ever logged in, including social sites, game sites, and forums, which are a little more complicated to delete posts from as you may have only used them once or twice and may not remember exactly when, making the process long and exhausting but still worth your while. Then, you should proceed to delete photographs you may have ever been tagged in, uploaded or posted. This is paramount.

Then, after you've made sure everything related to you has been successfully eliminated, you should search your own name in Google to double-check if there's any lost pictures or forums you have forgotten. If nothing comes up, you're good to go. If not, it would do to dig in a little more until you've finished deleting everything.

There are many, many sites that provide this information much more clearly than I could possibly ever manage to, so I'm going to attach some of them:

• This is the wikihow article
• This is a very specific article
• This is the article that I've read more thoroughly

They basically say the same in different words, but some of them are more specific on some issues, so it's important to give them a read. And if it's possible, it might be even better to read everything you can about the deletion before you actually do it.

Videopad

Videopad. The cause of many, many headaches during the past two months and since the first time I downloaded it on my laptop. For weeks I tried grappling with insufficient features and demo-versions that didn’t let me move on to the next actualization, all in vain. It’s slow, there’s not a proper downloadable version on the Internet, any version you download it’s temporary and will be obsolete in days, and even though I was about to fall for the usual lie they tell you about buying the actual software in order to get better features and decent outcomes, I simply was – am – unwilling to waste time and money on something that has already been proven to be utterly useless. Nevertheless, duty called and I couldn’t quit the project without it affecting my final grade on Computing, so I coped. Adding to my previous analysis of the programme, after having used up at least ten different demo-versions, I could not longer export any project at all from Videopad owing to the restrictions of these versions, and that has been my major problem for the past weeks. All my work, lost forever. My efforts, forgotten. I had to give everything up and go instead for a cheap, easy, quick project that I was only going to be able to work on at school. So here I am, angrily writing in my desk, completely aware of the damage Videopad has caused, and finally resigned to the fact that this time, in spite of the many hours I invested on my first projects that were likely to turn out perfect, everything I’ve done and spent time on will not be reflected on my grades. So, no, I am not content with this software. I have worked with it for months and the results were poor, slow, and not what I wanted them to be. Whenever I exported something, it came out much slower, with the different tracks and clips mixed up at times I had not programmed them to. After saving more than three times in a session, it closed up and warned me I had no more try-outs in the demo-version and had to buy the professional one if I wanted to continue working. Then, no, I do not want to. It may be useful if you find a good version, decent, at least, considerably inefficient, though, but it is something. If I had nothing else to go on, of course I would have to choose it. But given that my interest on video edition can be repressed for the moment, I’ll simply wait for a better, free, video software that responds correctly and doesn’t leave me hanging when I really need it to work at its best.